11:24 pm: i am not slandering Ron Padgett
Maybe
one day
in a far-off
magical land
on-the-sea, Maybe
i can be a poet
and maybe Ron
Padgett will know my
name and own a book
of mine, signed,
of course,
because i am so magnanimous
and kind to my fans
but behind their backs
i am a bitch goddess.
Maybe Ron Padgett
will sign a book for me
of his, even though
i don't know what books
of his are good, and
his status as a bitch goddess
is indeterminate.
Maybe i won't
spend the best years of my life
waiting tables at a greasy dive
waiting for tables at a greasy dive
because the only thing worse
than working there
is eating there
try the pate de foie gras,
mr. Padgett, it's exquisite here
Maybe if i go to
Manhattan occasionally
i'll see him there
or, rather, he'll see me
and, bitch goddess to
bitch goddess in that
magical land
on-the-sea Maybe
he'll sign a napkin
or a bra strap
or something more feral
but i know he's married
and i have a boyfriend
and i'll probably never call again
mostly because
i don't have a phone
but Maybe i'll hit on him
in a movie theater
and hope my mom
doesn't read this
because she thinks
"THE PILL"
is to help with womanlyissues
and it does
but it helps prevent
Ron Padgett's and my baby, too
if we were caught
in flagrente delicto
which might happen
unless i never become
a poet--
"The" poet,
how some men are
"The" man,
when they can't be
since Ron Padgett is so obviously
"The" man
but i'm not sure who
"The" poet
is yet
but Maybe
Ron Padgett knows
and if he ever deigns
to give me his [fucking]
autograph in the
magical land
on-the-sea then
Maybe I'll ask Ron
Padgett if he knows
and then i can stop
with Ron Padgett
and vie for some other
innocent soul's
help in becoming
"The" poet,
or just
"a" poet
and sometime
i'll sign my name to it
but not in the same
way Ron Padgett
would give me his auto
graph that dirty pig
i know he's married
because i read it in
a book on Joe Brainard
and i'm not writing
about Joe Brainard
although I like him more
because Joe Brainard's dead
and you can't get ahead dead
or even sign autographs
Current Mood: 
bored
12:15 am: Experiment 1 - Untitled
Pick a word or phrase at random, let mind play freely around it until a few ideas have come up, then seize on one and begin to write. Try this with a non-connotative word, like "so" etc.he makes tea and we
drink together often.
You are not her or she
but you come close
a word, a phrase, a consonant
separated you from
all that shit.
I take your phallic t and learn
how to defend myself with
it.
I can see my house from here.
One more time
you and I
sit reading ancient cousins
this & that
inside my house
which you've recently taken for your own.
You don't own anything.
Sometimes, still,
I feel you on the back of my teeth
and I laugh.
Current Mood: 
anxious